Monday, September 08, 2008

Don't worry, One of those is yours.

Zuul and I just had our second Dr's appt last week, and believe it or not, the little thing is still in there! I know this probably doesn't sound amazing or impressive to you, but I seriously sometimes look down at my stomach and wonder... Is it still there? I shouldn't be surprised, because I'm still sick and exhausted, though less of the time, and though there was a pooch there before, it's definitely a grande pooch now. But still... I can't feel it in there. So how do you REALLY know?

Well, you slather on some blue goo and go hunting for it's heartbeat. I have to say there was a mess of percussion going on in there on Friday. I must have had a suspicious look on my face, 'cause the nice nurse practitioner lady said, "Don't worry, one of those heartbeats is yours."

Phew.

On the drive home I had a little freakout. Who's in there?!! There's a person in there that's going to like some stuff and not others. Someone who's going to like bands that I've never heard of and know how to do things that I say are too hard for me because I'm too old to learn new technology. WHO ON EARTH IS IN THERE?!

I'm fine now. But I did have a nightmare about scary baby hands and feet grabbing me under the blankets... I woke Senor up with a wail of fear.

Don't worry, we are going to be great parents.

6 comments:

Brynne said...

The kicking is what made it real for me. Oh, baby kicking is incredible.

I used to dream that the baby was born and it was only 1/2" long and I kept putting it down and misplacing it. Pregnancy dreams are whack.

viejo fuerte said...

Oh Little Sweetie, of course the kid will like bands and be able to do stuff, BUT you will revel in the early years in which you are the smartest person in the world. You know things, important things, like why the sky is blue. You will be able to pick your kid's cry out of a dozen crying kids. You will have that most revered title; you will simply be "the Mom".

Anonymous said...

There will be a day when you realize that this little being is actually their own little entity (with opinions! and tempers!) and it scares the crap out of you.

Then, there are the days when they come up and give you a hug for no other reason than you are the most special, important person in their life.

This mommyhood stuff is way, way cool. Don't let the other stuff scare ya.
:)
-ash

Rebecca said...

oh no! not a scary baby dream. i haven't had one at all. i'm really surprised. maybe it's because i naturally have bizarre dreams. so glad you got to hear the heartbeats.... i'm going in next week for a 3-d ultrasound. those are the ones that are more "vanity" photographic-quality. but my mom is springing for it, and she's coming too. it'll be her first baby ultrasound ever, and she's a nurse (but works in the OR)

Sheryl aka: KNITIDIOT said...

Never really thought of it that way -- great...one more thing to add to the list of things that will freak me out! kidding...;-)

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